It seems to me that the harder I try the harder I fall.

I feel so happy. Honestly, I have never been happier all because I have found the perfect plan to end my life, and I know it will work. It will take a maximum of a month, but it can happen and it will! Now I can live my life to some extent, I can smile when I feel down because I know it will soon all be over. There will be no more happiness, but no more pain. No more let downs, and no more hospitals. There is so much that their will no longer be any more of and that makes me so happy. I am a quitter and I don't expect sympathy or love, this is just how it is. Boom.