I am heading to bed now before a very early 6am start tomorrow for college. I am terrified if I'm honest, I've never felt so scared in all my life. I was excited, but now the excitement has gone and all that is left inside me is fear. Also, after college I have a CAMHS appointment with my Mum and Emma, in a way I'm looking forward to that as it's a chance for me to pick myself back up again. At the moment I'm struggeling to stand back on my feet after a mega relapse a few weeks ago which involved the police, the hospital and a psychiatrist. So, yeah, ciao people! I love you guys^^