Happy Fathers Day to all the Dads who never give up on their kids!

Unfortunatly, I really can't say my Dad has been one of those. He stayed with us at home until I was thirteen and did nothing with me, just sat on his lazy arse all day watching football and if he did get up and move, it would be to go to the pub! Now, were here in 2011, 3 years ago everything was so different. Me and my Dad was closer than we are now, we had a bond of some type of where I trusted him. I spoke to him about my problems, nobody else, just him, but he's gone and betrayed me. Left, walked away out of my life, and this time, for good. Yet, I still get the blame for being the bad person? Truthfully, I used to agree with him. Everything was my fault back last year, I had no self esteem, no confidence and blamed myself for pratically everything. But now, I've realised that it wasn't my fault. I did all I could to be part of his life, I text him to see if he was okay, he never did that. I rang him, and visited him often, he never did that. It was always down to me if I wanted him in my life, I always had to make the arrangements. Well now, I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it all being me when I'm the "child" here and he's the adult, from where I'm seeing it looks like its the other way round! Its been so difficult for me to not go round his flat, or even send him a letter telling him how much he's hurt me and put me down when I deserved none of it. In this, I'm the good guy here not him. 

Today, with it being Fathers Day, I have decided that I am going to send him a Fathers Day card. Not being horrible, sarcastic which I really wanted to do. But just a plane and simple one, that way I can prove to him that I have done everything I could, tried while he's just sat their on his lazy arse and done fuck all. I hope it will show him and make him see how bad he's treated me over the years when I've deserved none of it, all I ever did was try and remain in contact with him but like people say, "Sometimes its easier to let go than hurting yourself trying to pick up all the pieces."I'm sick of it being just me making all the effort when it should be both of us doing so.