My poem that yet has no name, I hope you guys enjoy it. :)

I am a daughter trying to make you proud,

I am a sister trying to stand my ground.

I am a girlfriend giving you all my love

I am a best friend trying to do all the above.

I am an auntie who plays all day

I am a niece listening to everything you say.

I am a granddaughter trying to make you laugh

I am a cousin leading you on the correct path.

But what you don’t see is the person I really am

And when all doors are locked, curtains are closed.. I cry myself to sleep at night

Holding my covers close, praying and hoping that everything’s going to be alright…

Save me from the nothing I've become...

Nobody promised life was going to be easy, but they did promise it would be worthwhile!

Live your life as best you can. Never give up hope. With each breath you take remember what matters most. Live with no regrets and always forgive. You never know which day might be your last, if you have something to say, say it NOW! Reach for the stars, and know that they are NEVER too far away. Dreams CAN become reality but only if you take the steps necessary for that to happen. Never be afraid of life, smile through the storm, laugh through the tears and always look for the rainbow.

Pretty pretty please don't you ever ever feel like your nothing, you are perfect to me. ♥

Is my life really that much worth living?

I'm falling, falling way way down. I never thought things could get this bad, I thought I'd already been through the worst point my mental health could reach but I guess not. What if they send me down? What if they take me away and lock me up? I don't want that, I can't have that, I have to much that I would lose. I want to be normal, I want to be happy, I just want people to stop putting me down, I feel like everybody is just trying to kill me mentally, so why shouldn't I take action physically? I'm hurting more than before, it feels like I've been kicked and stomped on over and over again. This hurt just won't go, I see myself lying their screaming "Help, please somebody I need help" but nobodys around, nobody can hear me. I'm alone, lying on the floor dying, what can I do? How can I take control? I've taken control of situations before and I need to do the same now too but the question here is what the fuck am I meant to do? I'm lost.

Fence pannels = the meaning to life. Crazy, huh?!

This evening I was stood outside in the garden with my boyfriend and I just happened to come across something. When I was stood outside, I was looking through the fence. His fence is a bit different though, its like a prison cell style, and when I was looking through it I couldn't help but notice how that fence made me think about life. Not just my life, but life for everybody. You see theirs 3 main pannels, one on the left, one on the right and one in between the two. For me, looking to the left reminded me of the past, and then looking towards the right was the future, but in between both pannels was another pannel blocking you from seeing your future. We all know that a future lies ahead of us, but we tend to spend so long focusing on the past and being too afraid to leave it behind for so many reasons but the main reason being that the past made us who we are today. When you struggle with mental health problems, you know you have a future but that future you dream of is all in your hands and no matter how bad you want it to happen at the same time your too afraid because your so used to living your life in one way, the thought of changing into a completely different person scares you. But just remember, that change you make to your life will be a good change for the people around you but most of all yourself.

I will start accepting myself for me the day others do.

People always say, "be yourself", but you're never yourself, because we live in a society that says skinny is in, beauty is success, and being famous is everything.... It is not possible to be 100% yourself, because people change around the ones they like, the ones they hate, the ones they know, and the ones they dont...