"You can't truly love anybody until you learn you love yourself. "

I'm a happier person now, happier than what I was before and I owe it to a very special someone. Someone who has changed my life, turned my world around and made me see the positives of life. Someone who has made me strive for recovery and thanks to him, recovery is a huge part of my life and I refuse to let anybody put me down. You call me fat? I don't care. You call me ugly, you're just going to have to get used to it. You call me a psycho? Well darlin', the old me cared, the new one doesn't. I'm me and I like who I am, nobody can change me only I can change me and quite frankly that isn't going to happen. If you don't like me because of the way I am then thats your problem not mine, just walk away and never turn back. I'm happy with you doing that :)

Do you ever have those times you cry and you don't know why?

I know what its like to want to die; how it hurts to smile; how you try to fit in but you can't; how you hurt yourself on the outside; to try to kill the thing that's in the inside.

Maybe I am crazy but laughing makes the pain pass by.

Don't fall into the trap of pretending everything's fine when you know it isn't.

Come on skinny love what happened here?

I wear my scars proudly. They represent the battles through which I have gone, and I am proud because those battles I have won.

I haven't wrote this poem, but it really touches me. I can relate to it from when my friend commited suicide and she left a note, it explained how she felt all of what this boy feels. Please read and comment if you can, thank you :)

one sad cold night
a boy sat in his chair
picked up a gun
as he ran his fingers through his hair
he sat and cried as he thought
everything that’s happened
has all been my fault
he said if I was gone
this would all be better
and he told her
"I love you now more than ever"
he said "trust me
this is for the best
you will see
cause after I'm gone
no more fighting, you'll be free"
he grabbed a bullet
an put it in the gun
said, "I love you so much
but now I have to run"
he said "I'm sorry I can't take this no more.
I've let down so many people
I wish I could go back to before"
he hung up the phone
and pulled the trigger
looked down at his chest
as the pain grew bigger
his eyes filled with tears
they started to pour
as soon as his family ran in
he fell to the floor