Maybe this will explain me a little better, but idk, its worth a shot I guess.

Do you ever get that feeling where you don't want to talk to anybody? You don't want to smile and you don't want to fake being happy. But at the same time you don't know exactly what's wrong either. There isn't a way to explain it to someone who doesn't already understand. If you could want anything in the world it would be to be alone. People have stopped being comforting and being along never was. At least when you're alone no one will constantly ask you what is wrong and there isn't anyone who won't take 'I don't know' for an answer. You feel the way you do just because. You hope the feeling will pass soon and that you will be able to be yourself again, but until then all you can do is wait

Lifes a bitch, but hey, you jus' gotta move on.

Good-bye is the hardest thing to say, because you walk away with only memories; and memories, well...they fade away.

My poem that yet has no name, I hope you guys enjoy it. :)

I am a daughter trying to make you proud,

I am a sister trying to stand my ground.

I am a girlfriend giving you all my love

I am a best friend trying to do all the above.

I am an auntie who plays all day

I am a niece listening to everything you say.

I am a granddaughter trying to make you laugh

I am a cousin leading you on the correct path.

But what you don’t see is the person I really am

And when all doors are locked, curtains are closed.. I cry myself to sleep at night

Holding my covers close, praying and hoping that everything’s going to be alright…

Save me from the nothing I've become...

Nobody promised life was going to be easy, but they did promise it would be worthwhile!

Live your life as best you can. Never give up hope. With each breath you take remember what matters most. Live with no regrets and always forgive. You never know which day might be your last, if you have something to say, say it NOW! Reach for the stars, and know that they are NEVER too far away. Dreams CAN become reality but only if you take the steps necessary for that to happen. Never be afraid of life, smile through the storm, laugh through the tears and always look for the rainbow.

Pretty pretty please don't you ever ever feel like your nothing, you are perfect to me. ♥

Is my life really that much worth living?

I'm falling, falling way way down. I never thought things could get this bad, I thought I'd already been through the worst point my mental health could reach but I guess not. What if they send me down? What if they take me away and lock me up? I don't want that, I can't have that, I have to much that I would lose. I want to be normal, I want to be happy, I just want people to stop putting me down, I feel like everybody is just trying to kill me mentally, so why shouldn't I take action physically? I'm hurting more than before, it feels like I've been kicked and stomped on over and over again. This hurt just won't go, I see myself lying their screaming "Help, please somebody I need help" but nobodys around, nobody can hear me. I'm alone, lying on the floor dying, what can I do? How can I take control? I've taken control of situations before and I need to do the same now too but the question here is what the fuck am I meant to do? I'm lost.